Hello all!! Time has been flying by at warp speed and it is already February and Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. WOW!! Where did January go? Today, I have been kicking around thoughts about what I want to share with you for Valentine’s Day. As we all know, this day is traditionally a day on which lovers, family, and friends express their love for each other by giving flowers, chocolates, and greeting cards. Great romance dances in the air on Valentine’s Day!! Truly, Valentine’s day can be magic! Then I asked myself … what about those folks that do not embraced the magical spirit of Valentine’s Day? Why is that? I can easily see that there can be millions of reasons why … Are they alone? Is their heart broken? Are they grieving from a loss of a loved one? Is there relationship poisoned or detached? Is their heart unable to truly feel love? On and on ….
With all these thoughts flying around in my head, I am reminded that love comes from within our heart and that giving love to others is not possible until you truly unconditionally love yourself. This is a law of the Universe. You cannot freely give to others what you do not freely give to yourself. And why do you not love yourself? Again there are millions of reasons why you do not love yourself. I bet they are flashing thru your mind right now. You had a bad childhood … your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, or wife dumped you for someone else … your family, schoolmates, teachers, and coworkers repeatedly told you that you are stupid, not pretty, and that you are never going to amount to anything in your life.
Some of you right now may be seeing some flashbacks because deep … deep down inside Earth School has left you bitter and full of fear. The thing about it is that it can be so well hidden that you freely lie to yourself that you love you and that you love others. And yes you do love them on “some” level, but remember there are many flavors of love. Is your love true unconditional love? Be honest!! Just think and feel about it for a moment. Look deep inside you and see if there is something or some circumstance that happened in your life that may have deeply impacted your ability to freely love all beings unconditionally.
You may be asking where she is going now. Well, I am going to hang on the limb with my heart wide open and share with you deep inner programing that polluted my heart and blocked my ability to love unconditionally as God has intended. I did not initiate this on my own. I had a help from a dear friend and mentor who challenged me to face what I call the “Ramblings of the Saboteur Archetype”. I have deep love and gratitude to my friend for having the valor to reach out to me. As such, sometimes it takes the dark moments of your life to find the courage reach deep into your soul to pull out the truth so that you can forgive the trials and tribulations of life. And trust me … forgiveness is the key to opening up your heart to unconditional love. I am reaching out to you.
When I was faced with the knowing that I had a serious issue with truly loving anyone, especially myself, I did not take the path of denial. Instead, I went deep inside me and with help from the Divine I isolated and channeled the emotional code that was running round and round my subconscious like a deadly virus eating away at my very soul. It was exhausting, but after I was done writing, I read the channel and I actually felt the sticky essence of the negative energies stuck inside me for so many years … unhealed fear, anger, jealousy, abandonment, etc. Simultaneously, I felt a FLOOD of LOVE come over me. This wave of LOVE washed away all the junk that has been bottled up inside of me for years. A miracle! Yes, I received an instant healing and an opening of my heart that I had never felt before. I was born again and unconditional love is mine to share with all. It is my HOPE by sharing this channel with you that LOVE will also flood your heart to heal your hidden pain that you have not yet faced and that your heart will sing with the JOY of endless unconditional LOVE. Miracles happen every day. Believe in LOVE!
Much LOVE to you …. From my Heart to your Heart …. Many Blessing for your Valentine’s Day!!!
The Lie – Ramblings of the Saboteur Archetype
I fear love as I am sure that it cannot be true.
They say they love me, but it is all an illusion.
I love them but I am always in fear of when they will abandon me.
Do I love them or do I hold back just in case they turn on me?
Abandonment!!!!
I know it is coming anytime now because they really do not love me.
Time for a preempted strike.
So I notice things that are going on around me that seem to be favorable to others.
Deep inside of me I feel an injustice and that I am being left out.
A twisted truth.
Jealousy!!
Underlying anger rules.
I am unaware that I am radiating this anger.
The anger can be universal or aimed.
I do not hear my Anger, but I am my Anger.
My anger protects me.
How do I break this illusion?
Truth…. Truth is salvation
Jealousy is a stealth virus feed by fear.
People are drawn to me to help them. This has been my whole life time.
Sabotage is a key word. I use this to get out of things that I fear or do not believe the person really loves me.
I have love inside me but I do not know how to love.
I have fear of love.
I do not unconditionally love me.
I hide my fears.
I fear abandonment.
I fear love.
I use my fear to stop love and create abandonment.
I am my own worst enemy.
I hurt the people I love with illogical illusions I create from my fears.
I will forever be alone if I hang on to these archetypes.
I bury this entire illusion deep inside where it lives and work like a gremlin in the night.
All of this runs like an invisible virus behind my reality …. A lie.
Blessing of love … Laura J.
P.S. ”Love to hear your thoughts….”
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